Love is something that is sung about, its something that we all long for, whether it’s a loving family, friends that you can share your heart with, or a special someone that you want to spend the rest of your life with. People have done crazy things in the name of Love, that under other circumstances they wouldn’t do.
I was raised by my grandmother until the age of 10, and for various reasons, I yearned to be loved. As the years passed I found myself in a relationship that was not healthy for me, but because I didn’t know who I was – my worth or my value – I ended up staying because it was feeding my ‘need’ for love. I never showed my real self because I was afraid of being too much or too little.
My world had come tumbling down
When that relationship came to an end it felt like my world had come tumbling down, when in reality it was probably the beginning of me realising that I needed to heal. I knew that if I didn’t get to that point of loving myself, and knowing who I am and whose I am, I would continue the cycle of looking to the other person to fulfil me in ways that were humanly impossible.
I have learnt that people love in the best way they know how, but there are deep parts of us that need a different type of love, a love that reaches to those secret places and brings healing to the areas that are filled with pain from past scars. A love that transcends human understanding, that once you experience it it in turn compels you to love others the way you have been loved.
Reaching rock bottom on various occasions in my life pushed me to search for something deeper than anything i had experienced – and that something can only be found in God. The love I have experienced in God is a love that holds on and never lets go, it leads you to face the darkness of life whilst holding your hand and giving you a glimpse of a freedom that awaits you on the other side. It shows you that you are worth dying for and that there isn’t a monetary price that could buy you.
You were designed to be LOVED, You came from love, way before you were conceived
It makes you see truth; truth in who you are; truth that you were designed to be loved, because you came from love, way before you were conceived. Truth that, you were uniquely created for a purpose and that what you contribute to the world matters.
God is love – the deep kind of love, the kind that is head over hills crazy for you, and when that special person comes into your life, or you meet friends that become family, or you sit in a room with your family, you discover in part how much God loves you.
What He does with your life when you reach out to Him will make you look back and wonder how on earth you did life without Him. Perhaps that’s just it, we were never created to do life outside of Him, maybe just maybe we are only truly at our best when we invite Him into our lives. The road of life’s storms and uncertainties taken, with the knowledge that we are loved and capable, that we are not alone, gives us the courage to keep walking over to the other side.
Merry Christmas
Much Love
Sipho
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